Words Heal

I was going through my PC and found some poetry I did at one point in my life when I was a mess, hopelessly in love, back in my mess. And the only thing that helped me was writing. Wanted to share some - enjoy :)

1. (Didn't name this one)

I can’t believe how I could hardly function thinking I screwed up with you!

What have you done to me?
Just thinking about you, makes me shake, makes me breathless,
I can’t talk or move!
Your poison has consumed me.

My mind is all over the place,
Feelings are rushing through me,
Telling me to walk away,
But at the same time to fight for you!
Just writing this makes it harder for my lungs to breathe,

I’m a mess,

The side effects of you are driving me crazy,
I just want to be with you,
Even if it’s not the way I want.
Just to be next to you, just to look at you,
And have you looking back at me.

You’ve drawn me in,

Injected me with your toxin,
Running through my veins is all you,
You’re filling the hole in my heart,
Inside me, I’m overloading with butterflies.
 

I never want this feeling to go away!

Make me yours...
Make me happy....


2. Goodbye

I think this is the last time I’m going to write about you,

And before I carry on, I’d like to thank you for being the reason I started writing again,
You accomplished a lot with me without even knowing,
And although I did the work myself, it was because of who you are that I have changed and opened new doors.
 

Thinking back to how you made me feel...wow, I was in bliss,

I was so whipped, so deep in everything that you were,
That I couldn’t breathe, function or even think
And its amazing how one little conversation changed all of that

I loved the fact that I loved the thought of being in love with you

I loved the fact that you didnt feel the same back
I even the loved the fact you were a d*ck sometimes
It has made me feel again, and let you go all in short moment to help me move on with life.

So, my new adventure starts :)

So excited, although I am sad to leave
But there was one part of you that made me stop having all those feelings,
The many women you bedded,

However, I couldn’t be more grateful to you for being honest!

It’s something I cherish a lot in life,
But unfortunately I couldn’t bring myself to feel the same way anymore,
Or even carry on fighting for you.

I wish you only the best,

I wish you happiness, love and magical moments.
However I can see the table turning on you one day,
Pity the women who cared for you won’t be there to save you…

This is my final goodbye,

My thank you’s,
My best wishes,
That’s all I have left for you, the rest of me now belongs to me, right where it should be.

3. Let Go

I’m still dragging my feet along this road,

Hitting each bump and pothole along the way,
Hurting each and every time.

I keep on doing this to myself,

Letting my most inner fears consume me,
And win over the battles that I keep on fighting for.

I’m drowning in my own sea of hate and hurt,

Why? Why can’t I open my eyes and realise my potential?
Leave the past behind, and work on moving forward.

I’m so angry. So hurt. So lost.

I’m starting to think I’ve lost me forever,
A whirl wind captivating me and not letting go.

Can I possibly get me back?

Can I finally win this fight?
Can I eventually forgive everything and let go?